Love is truly the juice of life and something that seemed to be unavailable to me for such a long time.
I thought that if someone loved me then that would be enough and I went looking for love in all the wrong places. When my son Jonathan was born I had a wonderful dose of what real, unconditional love was all about but it for many years seemed so difficult to love myself.
I was always looking for outside circumstances to change and felt that would make me lovable. But I found out that it wasn’t about anything at all outside of me. I was the only one who could truly embody the love that I wanted so badly.
It has taken me years of frustration and searching to finally come to some real inner peace and self love.
But the journey has been worth every bit of the struggle and the frustration because within it all I found me and I really like who I am finally.
Yes, I had a difficult childhood and it was easier for me to point a finger and blame others for the things in my life that I judged as wrong. But truly nothing was wrong. Life was just helping me to know and understand myself better.
What an amazing journey that life is.
So my friend be easy on yourself and know that everything has happened to help you. When things go wrong instead of doing what I did an resisting it like crazy just use your child-like curiosity “isn’t that interesting?”, is a really good place to start.
I look forward to connecting with you again soon.